Denial....

Denial....Denial...Denial....

I really think I was in denial of exactly how far I have let myself go! Shawn brought a few pictures home last night from his parents.....there is two with me sitting on the kitchen floor crossed legs holding their new puppy.....and OMIGOD I am HUGE!! I was shocked....I mean I see myself naked every morning....and I KNOW I have gained weight...but holy shit that picture was a slap in the face of reality. I look obese. I was instantly depressed. My husband knew it too and knew why. He asked me and I said "I look sooo bad in those pictures!!" He replies....."Babe, don't worry you are doing something about it....you will do it "

My husband is very lean...he hit the heaviest of 182 last week....he goes on the scale today 175 WHAT THE F*CK!! He eats like a freakin apple instead of a chicken wing and POOF the weight falls off him. Here I am changing my eating completely working out every day......and it will take me a lot longer to lose.

"Stamps the ground with foot" NOT FAIR !!!

*sigh*

Anyway I had to rant......and the old me would of seen those pictures and went out and bough Mcdonalds....but no not the new me....the new me stayed in points!! Yay!